Conversations with Sabian



How are you feeling?

Okay, joints a bit stiff but overall better since starting to chew garlic.

I tried to get you to take garlic a few days ago.

Yes, you did. I remember.

Why didn’t you start then?

In the past, it’s been hard on the stomach and when you brought it to my attention my stomach was empty. I knew I couldn’t do it at that time, then I forgot.

Then what happened?

A day later I read about chewing garlic. That felt right, better than eating it, so I tried it.

You are wondering where this conversation is going, yes?


What are you seeing around this situation as you type this?

How I dismissed the original information as ‘this will not work’.

Yes, it felt valid at the time and it was and is true, but you let it go at that. It would have been better to say. I know garlic works, it’s too hard on the tummy. Is there another way or something else? Start the conversation.

Don’t dismiss, talk to me. I know it felt like there was nothing to say. You had already tried garlic in many ways. But there was. See?

Are you starting to get there is always another option? Always! Had you said something at the time I could have immediately redirected you. Even if it was to another alternative.

It’s not that I won’t give you the information that you need when you need it. This is to show you how you closed a door when you could have walked through.

You need to let go of these knee-jerk responses. They are incredibly limiting and there is so much more when you do. So many options and doorways. Don’t limit yourself!





Conversations with Sabian


Yes, I’m here.
It feels as if I have large paws on the keyboard, claws and all!
Hee hee he… Yep!
Want to make this FUN!
Okay! I’m up for fun! 
Look at how much has shifted over these last weeks.
I’m not the same person.
No you are not. Continue to reach for the stars and let the momentum accelerate what you are working on. You have a lot on your plate at the moment. Remember to take one step at a time.
There are times, like now, where I hear you and then it seems to be 5 voices at once and not sure which thread to follow.
(Laughing) Yes, you do.
Yes, as soon as I asked the question the answer was there.
Yes. Stop, go inward and hold our connection with sacredness intending non-interference. The other voices were unconscious parts of you that wanted to know about certain things. When that happened I stopped talking to you and this is where the confusion came in. This is to teach you.
You caught it immediately, but you didn’t recognize what you caught. This was a seeing exercise for you. Now you will know.
(Long pause…..Sabian wants me to write ‘long paws, which makes me smile)
Lighten up!!!
(Smiling) Anything else?
Hu huh!
Continuing from one step at a time.
You do not have to go into overwhelm. It’s best if you can divert yourself and focus on one step at a time, allowing the magic and grace to flow through each task. Remember to take a few moments, just moments, throughout the day and tell yourself, ‘well done!’ You have the tendency to slide right into the next task without giving yourself any praise. These short moments in time are important. Otherwise, and you know this, by the end of the day you feel tired, and like you haven’t done much.
You must start honoring what you do.
Again, this is important!
Thank you!
* It may not come across in the conversation, but Sabian was being very silly. He was doing his best  to make sure I was having fun from start to finish.

Conversations with Sabian

What is with this wanting to sleep right now.
It’s tired from internal fighting energies. You are saying you are refusing to run old, long held patterns and they are up fighting to run. This will continue until you completely process this. Yes ups and downs but it’s at the pressure cooker stage.
Yes, certain tasks were needed to be completed in this last hour,   BUT you could have held your awareness differently. This would have allowed the process to start to shift until you could put your whole focus into processing.
All it would have taken was to pause, which you did. Go inward and acknowledge what was there. You could not identify exactly what it was but to acknowledge the vibration, the feeling. Ask the Divine Mother to take it. Trusting and holding the gratitude that this was happening. This would have created the movement necessary so you would not be drained.
You understand, yes?

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Conversations with Sabian

sabian-windowLet go and relax.
Focus on the body and breathe.
Scan the body. Where are you still tight, feel heavy or stuck? Breathe into those parts.
Move out of your mind and into your heart.
I know you have a headache. This brings your focus, your energy into your head and your mind tries to take over.
Open the space around the headache.
Don’t contract around the pain, breathe and expand the area. Give it room, space to move.
Don’t worry if it gets a bit more intense at first. This is normal. You are allowing yourself to feel it. This is good. A first step.
Check your nitrates. You eat well but it feels like there is something that has nitrates in it that you are not aware of.
There…. good.  (I had created space around the headache)
Can you feel the difference? The pain is still there, moving but the sharp edge is off.
The times are a bit tricky right now. Pay attention to the signals the body is giving you. Don’t gloss over these.
They are there to help you, show you what is out of balance.
(Being given an image of a cat climbing a tree. This feels strange and out of context)
Cat climbs up in a tree?
Why are you showing me this? What does it mean?

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Wisdom from Sabian


Sabian I need something for the blog
What would you like to say?


(Laughing)  That’s a first.

That’s because I am usually talking to you.
Tonight I’d like to talk to everyone else.


There is much angst at the moment and many are allowing their hearts to shut down. It happens without most of them realizing it.
No matter what you are going through to find moments throughout the day to feel grateful. Find something, anything to be grateful for. It doesn’t matter. It’s the feeling that is important. If you are having a difficult time start with something you know you can feel grateful for, use that to start. Once you feel it with one thing it is easier to feel it with something else. You’ve opened up the path for more gratitude.
Moving into gratitude opens the heart.
Many of you out there know this. Are you practicing it?
A loving reminder to do so.
I am grateful for all of you.

Sabian and 35 Cats


Sabian 2004

Why did it take 35 cats to replace the work you did?

It was about the amount of energy and light that I have and could move. Along with the knowledge and wisdom that I carry. Each of the other kitties had a piece of  knowledge and wisdom. It took 35 other beings to hold and work with that amount of energy and knowledge that I contain and was working with.  Each kitty had a quality, gift and talent, that I hold. This made it easier for you to see and recognize. Kryia the independent adventurer. Kuma with no fear, leaping to new heights or reaching for the stars. Sweet, compassionate love from Fern who could do no harm. Lyra with the ability to adapt to her surroundings.

All cats are good at moving energy and clearing negativity. I continued to guide and support the 35  while they were with you and of course Muu with his apprenticeship. 

My commitment to you, to bring those qualities into your life to teach, help and guide you.

Muu’s Story


Muu 2008-2015

Thirty-five cats. I couldn’t believe I had thirty-five cats.  But that’s another story.

On this day I was faced with finding homes for them. Most were kittens, that would be easy I had done it before. I needed to move in a few months and it was time for most of the cats to move to find new homes. I had felt that Fern, one of the original cats, and possibly one other would make the move with me. Sabian, would have come had he still been in a body.

Laying on the couch downstairs I could hear the kittens playing at the top of the stairs. They were still quite small and had just ventured outside the bedroom days before. One of the new favorite places was to sit at the top of the stairs where they could look out over the tops of the redwoods. The feeling of being quite high up but with the safety of a solid floor. The kittens were too small to go down the stairs, let alone climb back up. Occasionally one would try and climb down, fall actually, one or two of the steps then one of the mama cats would come and rescue. It only took a few of these and the rest decided it was better to stay at the top. Stair agility would come a few weeks later when they were bigger.

Kitten noises shifted, they were going back into the bedroom. I closed my eyes to contemplate the options of new homes for the cats and kittens. Wondering how this was all going to sort itself out.

I dozed off.

I was journeying. This one was very different and very vivid from the journeys I had in the past. I could feel I was being taken somewhere. I was not alone.

I found myself flying over a planet filled with pyramids. Their color a shiny silver but with the qualities of gold. As I flew over I was curious about some being so close together. They all looked the same, but I was aware that each pyramid/temple had its own specific function. If my focus stayed on a particular pyramid for any length of time I would be able to see inside.

One moment I was flying and the next I was inside one of these pyramids. It was a healing temple. A stone table in the center of the room. There were smaller rooms with tables off the main room, each used for specialized healing. I didn’t understand much of what was going on, other than I was being offered a gift.

My time and work there complete I began to open my eyes. Wow, what had just happened? As I came fully back into my body lying on the couch. Feeling totally rested and at peace. I felt something on the pillow at the top of my head. I reached up and touched a warm furry body. This tiny kitten had somehow made it down the stairs and climbed his way up onto the couch. It was the black and white kitten affectionately nicknamed ‘Moo’ due to his coloring, similar to a cow. I gently scooped up the sleeping kitten as I slowly sat up.

The dots immediately connected. This little (little only in cat body size) being was the one that took me on this journey. I had felt guided, led by something unseen, being held and supported the entire time.

Version 2

Muu as a kitten on moving day

Sabian filled in the blanks. Muu was one of my guides in training and had come into a body to help. Sabian, a master cat was training him.

Given this information I knew that this was the cat going forward with me. Muu liked the sound of his nickname but wanted the spelling changed. From that day he went from Moo to Muu.

Wisdom from Sabian

sabian-windowBe at peace.

Sit in that stillness for a moment before we begin.


You know everything is about to change and everything feels uncertain.

This is bringing up fear. Fear in the body. It’s more subtle now, but not less intense.

Finding peace with uncertainty. Meaning finding the peace within. Holding that peace in the face of uncertainty.

It can be done when you can embrace uncertainty.

When you recognize uncertainty is a place where there are unlimited options and possibilities

So uncertainty is a place that you will continue to encounter.

Recognize this and know that what is certain is You. The divinity within. Uncertainty is the landscape of unlimited possibilities, but not the possibilities your ego wants to grasp at for comfort. It’s breaking you out of those habits and routines and forcing you to go within.

That connection to source the infinite is what IS certain always. It cannot not be, even when you all you feel is disconnected.

Conversations with Sabian

sabian-windowI usually start by saying ‘Sabian’. This calls him in, lets him know I’m ready. Today he jumps right in as soon as my fingers touch the keyboard. I can barely keep up.

You’re scared that you are not doing this accurately anymore correct?



I’m different and wonder if this is of interest to anyone.

Does it matter?

It’s another exercise in trust. Putting it out there no matter how silly it sounds.

Yes, and?

What matters is … Oh crap!… I’m comparing to other writers. No more. This isn’t about any of that.

So, shall we move on?

You’re in a huge transition. Give yourself some room. There is a learning curve to this and it’s not always going to be an upward trajectory.

You’ll have good and bad days with this (Judging this is your opinion) Where you feel it is more readable and not. The truth is you don’t know what the person needs or gets from the writing.

Maybe nothing, a smile, a laugh or could touch them deeply. All could be true for different beings on the same article. You don’t know.

You made a commitment to write.

That is all you have to do. Besides editing for spelling, etc. But then again, (he’s laughing) — I’m not doing the typing.

From my perspective, it is not good and bad days with this it’s how open you are or not. When you are not very open the words will not be given, you know this, you feel it. You know when to sit down and write and you know that when you are open there is tremendous joy that comes through. It comes through us both. As it is right now.

Wisdom from Sabian


You didn’t think you would get to this part. This feeling of peace until certain tasks were accomplished. 


Don’t focus on the vulnerability you are feeling. This is normal. For this moment don’t think about posting. Just allow what I have to share to come through. 



 You are starting to get it. You are both further along then you know and just beginning to see how much further you have. Which really you have no idea. No, don’t judge yourself. As you open and expand the comprehension will be there. 

LOL… I hear your thoughts. You’re thinking ‘Will I ever talk about something else?’ 

Uncomfortable are we. (Big cat smile)

Who said I would? (Talk about other things)

You assumed it would be about all kinds of things because you knew I had a lot to say. Your mind got in the way and told you all kinds of stories. 


I know this is making you uncomfortable, it’s meant to. Let it…. Let this shake things loose so they can move and leave. You don’t need that stuff anymore. 

Interesting.. Only a few words here yet the feeling for me is enormous.

Different worlds. This will resonate with some and not with others. It’s a very specific place you are in and it was the energy that moved that gave the feeling of enormity.